It’s that stage of my life where I am once again feeling extremely nervous and stressed about school. And I know this feeling won’t die until everything’s been confirmed & settled.
I’ve always felt that somehow, I’ve managed to be lucky throughout my entire academic life. Totally lucky. Like, luck plays about 70% of the reason I’m here. In all honesty, I don’t think I’m a bad student at all. I know where my strengths lie and I’m not afraid to show it, but when it comes to being an all-rounder, I’m still squeezing my way through the narrow gaps – barely making it. And that’s what forever keeps me teetering on that fence, never being able to seamlessly make my way into my next stage of education.
I still remember being so incredibly worried over Mass Comm applications and going for both the NP and TP interviews, eventually securing the one I really wanted. I’m grateful for all the opportunities I’ve been given, for Mr D, Ms Chee and Mrs Nah (despite being completely tickled by my less than stellar Math grade then) to believe that I could find my place in CMM. I really felt that they weren’t bothered about our grades, the few of us who showed up at the interview, but instead just wanted to see how much we wanted to be there.
This time, I just hope that my want will show just as much. I need this to keep me on this path, and to figuring out properly what I really can do – what I am truly capable of achieving.